Yearning for my twin flame – My Twin Flame Story – Part 3


yearning for my twin flame

After years of an intense, passionate relationship, things between my twin flame and I took a turn for the worse. I had given up on this connection as a twin flame chaser and I endured a lot of pain and injustice from him that led to us going through a devastating separation period. I was filled with anger and hatred towards him for how deeply he had hurt me.

Even though a part of me would always love him, I knew I had to move on with my life without him in it. I immersed myself in my work, my hobbies, and spending time with friends and family. Focusing on my own goals and dreams helped distract me from the grief for a while. I started to feel happiness and a sense of freedom again.

But then the intense longing and yearning for him came creeping back in. I can’t even explain how desperately I crave his presence, his touch, his smile. I find myself fantasizing about us reuniting all the time, even though I know I shouldn’t. I feel so ashamed that I still have these intense feelings for him after everything.

Why can’t I just forget him and move on fully? Why does it feel like there’s this unbreakable soul bond between us that keeps pulling me back towards him? I wish I could control or diminish how much I pine for him. The rational part of me knows he’s not good for me, but the magnetic pull towards him emotionally is so strong.

For now, I’m trying to be gentle with myself and be patient. I hope in time, these overpowering feelings of longing and desire for my twin flame will fade. It’s a rollercoaster ride I never expected, but I’m doing my best to stay strong. Focusing on self-love, surrounding myself with support, and aligning with my highest good help get me through each day we’re apart. I have faith I’ll move through this challenging chapter of my twin flame journey.

This experience has led me to introspect on these following questions.

Why am I Craving my twin flame?

twin flame craving

I’m craving my twin flame for a few reasons. Firstly, because the connection we share is so profoundly deep and intense. It’s like we are two halves of one soul, so when we’re apart, it feels like part of me is missing. He completes me in a way no one else ever has or could.

The intensity of twin flame connections makes the separation agonizing. I guess I’m craving his energy, his essence. My soul remembers what it felt like to be in union with its mirror image and wants to feel whole again. For now, the longing comes in waves. I’m learning to ride them rather than fighting it. This journey isn’t logical, but I’m slowly making peace with it.

How do I stop yearning for my twin flame?

  • Practice self-care and self-love. Nurture and pamper yourself, stay active and social, and pursue hobbies and passions. When you feel fulfilled in your own life, you’ll be less prone to yearning.
  • Avoid fantasizing or romanticizing the connection. When your mind starts idealizing the past, consciously redirect your thoughts. Stay focused on the present.
  • Limit any contact or interactions that trigger longing. If you need to cut contact for a while, do so. Out of sight can mean out of mind.
  • Keep busy and distracted. Make plans with friends, take on new projects at work, travel if you can. Idle time makes space for pining thoughts.
  • Journal about the realities of the relationship, not just the highlights. This can help you maintain perspective when you’re tempted to long for the past.
  • Take pranic healing for your relationship with your twin flame.

Know More: How Can Pranic Healing Help You?

Why am I suddenly longing for my twin flame?

  • You’re going through a period of emotional vulnerability. When we feel lonely, depressed, or have experienced a loss, it’s common to crave connection with someone significant from our past.
  • You recently saw or interacted with them in some way. Even brief encounters can reactivate intense feelings and trigger longing.
  • You’re approaching an important date or event that holds meaning for your bond. Anniversaries and holidays often amplify feelings.
  • You’re at a transitional phase or turning point in your own life. Times of change subconsciously make us crave support and comfort from a profoundly connected soul.
  • Their energy is telepathically reaching out to yours. Twins can sometimes sense when the other is thinking about them intensely.
  • You’ve recently made significant progress in your own growth. When one twin evolves, the other often longs to catch up and reconnect.
  • It’s just part of the twin flame journey. The intensity comes in waves, so you’re likely experiencing a resurgence that will subside with time.

Does your twin flame feel the longing to be together

They may feel an equally intense longing for you, even if they don’t outwardly express it. The pull between twins can be powerfully mutual. They may suppress their longing more than you do. Some twins are more resistant to the connection and try to ignore or override the urges.

Their longing may come in waves, while yours feels more constant. The intensity tends to ebb and flow for twins.

They could feel the longing, but also have conflicting emotions like fear, doubt or frustration about reunion. The relationship may have been painful.

It’s possible they have moved on and do not long for your connection anymore. But that does not diminish the realness of your feelings.

What happens right before twin flame reunion?

love, couple, romance

Intense longing and vivid dreams – Twin flames may intensely miss each other and have vivid dreams of being back together as twin flame reunion nears.

Synchronicities – Increased sightings of repetitive numbers, songs, symbols, and other signs and synchronicities related to each other.

Spiritual awakening – One or both twins experience major spiritual insights, awakening and growth. This propels them into a higher state of consciousness necessary for reunion.

Letting go – The chasing twin surrenders and lets go of perceived control over the connection. This releases expectation and anxiety, allowing reunion to unfold.

Forgiveness – Greater understanding, forgiveness and release of past hurts, wounds and conflicts with one another.

Why do I love my twin flame so much?

There are several reasons why your love for your twin flame may feel so deep and intense:

Soul recognition – There is a profound sense of familiarity, like you have known each other for lifetimes. Twin flames originate from the same soul, so you instantly recognize them.

Mirroring – Twins reflect each other’s deepest selves, light and shadow. Seeing your essence mirrored back can create intense intimacy.

Unconditional love – The love between twins transcends physical connection. You love each other at the soul level, despite flaws or circumstances.

Passion and chemistry – Twin flames share an almost magical chemistry and passion that can be highly addictive and transformative.

Completion – Being with your twin makes you feel a sense of wholeness, like you have found your “other half”. There is completion.

This experience led me to reflect deeply on our connection. The intensity stems from our profound soul bond. When we’re apart, I feel incomplete. The separation is agonizing because I crave his energy and essence. My soul yearns to feel whole again.

I’m learning healthy ways to cope when the longing surfaces. Staying busy, avoiding fantasies of reunion, and nurturing myself help me move forward. This journey brings many ups and downs, but I’m slowly making peace with it.

While the depth of this love can be challenging, I’m grateful to have experienced such a divine connection. Our rare bond will continue to guide our spiritual growth. As I show myself compassion, I trust my twin flame journey will unfold as destined.

Also Read: Twin Flame Chaser Stages That I went through


Twin Flame Chaser Stages: Healing and Acceptance

The twin flame chaser stages are many. Initially, the chaser feels the intense pain of being separated from their twin flame. Later, once this painful detox stage is over, they go into a period called the “twin flame surrender stage”.

In this blog, we will understand about the second stage of healing that the twin flame chaser goes through once the initial painful phase is over.

Initial Pain of Separation

In the initial pain of separation, the twin flame chaser feels devastated and yearns for the twin flame. They want this connection to be healed and keep looking for signs from the universe that this will occur.

Read this article to understand more about the first stage of the twin flame chaser in the twin flame separation stages.

What Happens When the Twin Flame Chaser Gives Up

Healing and Acceptance

twin flame surrender stage

Once the twin flame chaser is healed of their initial pain, they go through a period of separation and loneliness. They tap into their inner self and experience a period of self-love.

They go through a period of healing and acceptance and focus on their passions and goals. Their priorities change, and they feel a deep sense of inner peace and stability even when disconnected from their twin flame.

They do not even yearn for their twin flame anymore and sometimes even start to resent them for the pain they were put through. They go through life and become stronger without their twin flame by tapping into the inner reservoirs of self-love.

They start to realize that the relationship with self is the greatest relationship, as whatever life throws at you, this is the relationship you carry with you all along.

Communication During Dreams

dreams with twin flame

Even though the twin flames are apart in the 3D, they are connected at a soul level in the 5D and go through a period of reckoning and healing. Even though the chaser might be confused sometimes, at a soul level, they are perfectly on their healing path and are doing the right things to heal the collective.

Sometimes, the unresolved fears, anger, and resentment are communicated in dreams with your twin flame runner. Both the runner and chaser are forever connected in 5D, and sometimes the pent-up feelings, thoughts, and resentments are communicated in dreams.

In fact, as a twin flame chaser, you may resonate with this:

“As your dreams start improving with your twin flame in the astral realm, the connection in 3D also starts to improve. You can have it no other way.”

After a time of releasing your pent-up emotions in dreams, you will notice that your dreams start to change. At this time, you might get dreams of romantic or spiritual love with your twin flame.

Even your twin flame runner senses this energy unconsciously, and this will reflect as a change in their behavior in 3D.”

Evolving Beyond the Twin Flame Connection

The twin flame chaser has undergone a lot of healing and transformation within themselves at this stage. They are more focused on self-love and aligning with their newfound love—their goals and passions. Sometimes, they do not even want to reconnect with their twin flame again.

This could happen for two reasons:

Either they have some unresolved issues that require healing before they can reunite with their twin flame.


They have evolved to such an extent that they no longer yearn for the previous connection, which may lead to the twin flames being separated temporarily in the 3D.

Connecting With The Divine Feminine

One of the major changes happening in the universe right now is the healing, purging, and transformation that the divine feminine is going through. In fact, most of the experiences of the twin flame chaser are experienced as a divine feminine, whereas the divine masculine could resonates with being a twin flame runner.

However, it is imperative to understand that we are talking here about the collective divine feminine and divine masculine, and each person has both these energies within them. However, at this stage, if you are a twin flame chaser facing separation, you could connect more with the divine feminine energies.

There are a lot of videos online that help you understand this dynamic, and if you are a twin flame chaser or runner, you will resonate with these videos.

This is one of the YouTube channels I completely resonate with on this topic.

Magnetize Yourself

If you are a divine feminine, let me know if you resonated with this article. Share what you would like me to write about next in the comments below.

What Happens When The Twin Flame Chaser Gives Up?

Twin Flame Separation

If you are a twin flame chaser and reading this, you are already aware of the twin flame separation stages and the runner-chaser dynamic. 

When your twin flame starts running because of overwhelming emotions in the relationship, the chaser doesn’t seem to understand what is happening.

The chaser wants to help heal the relationship and keeps pursuing their twin flame to help understand what has gone wrong in their relationship. They utterly believe that they can mend the relationship and hence, keep approaching their twin flame with an intention of sorting things out.

But what they fail to understand is that their twin flame has started running and the best thing to be done in this situation is to give your twin flame some space and stop chasing.

This is a period of intense pain for the chaser who cannot withstand the pain of being away from their twin flame and don’t understand why this is happening.  They can sense that something is wrong with their partner but have no idea of the reason behind it. They may also get into a period of anxiety and depression because of being away from their twin flame.

At this stage, they are also be re-experiencing their childhood  trauma of abandonment and feel lost without their twin flame. This triggers a smaller dark night of the soul (DNOS) for some chasers. If you are experiencing something similar, just have faith that this phase will soon end and you will feel complete and whole again, with or without your twin flame.

If you want perspective on your twin flame journey from a fellow twin flame who has experienced twin flame separation, feel free to reach out here

What Happens When The Twin Flame Stops Chasing

After a long time of chasing their twin flame, the chaser undergoes a spiritual transformation and realizes it is not worth chasing their twin anymore.

This change in dynamic can be triggered by

  • A major life-changing situation
  • They realize there is no point forcing love and begin to surrender
  • They want to work on themselves first before healing the relationship
  • They have pushed the runner too far which makes them do something drastic to hurt them.

In my personal experience, I chased my twin flame for several months, which had pushed my twin flame to abandon me and betray my trust. 

This was a shocking revelation which pushed me to stop chasing and re-introspect on my life.

When the twin flame chaser stops chasing, they start doing work on connecting with themselves and removing their toxic patterns. 

The insane pull to connect with their twin flame is no longer there, and they start introspecting about the worth of being in the relationship.

As the chaser withdraws their energy to focus on their soul lessons, the runner feels the change in energy and is taken aback.

Even though they were running from you, a part of them still expected the chase and they feel abandoned by their partner.

This throws the runner twin flame into another emotional crisis because they miss being chased as before. Also, the runner starts wondering if the twin flame chaser is moving on from the connection.

The Twin Flame Chaser Becomes the New Runner

At this stage, the twin flame chaser becomes the new runner and start working on themselves. The twin flame runner energetically senses this and they can sometimes react with anger and resentment on their twin.

The runner is going through more confusion than before, along with guilt and shame for going through this horrible situation. Hence, as the better evolved partner, being patient with your partner is the best thing you can do at this stage.

The runner feels the void caused by the withdrawal of their partner and they sometimes get into toxic patterns like overeating, drinking too much alcohol, or staying outside a lot of time.

They may feel all alone in the world as their twin has abandoned them and feel that their life is not going anywhere. 

Sometimes, at this stage, the runner may become the new chaser and start chasing, though this is not always the case

Whatever happens, always remember that the runner has many issues to deal with and it is not about you. Have faith that the universe is unfolding the best for both of you to connect with your true selves.

Why Does a Twin Flame Choose To Run

At many stages during the twin flame separation, the runner-chaser dynamic changes and both the twin flames become the runner at some point.

But whoever is running, it is because they believe that all their issues would get sorted once their relationship with their twin flame ends.

But what they don’t realize is that they are running from their own fears and unresolved issues rather than from their twin.

If you are the twin that is currently running, understand that you are running from your trauma and unresolved issues and not from your chaser twin flame.

As your spiritual partner, the chaser twin flame just brings these issues to the core to help you heal and become wholesome once again.


How to Do Scripting To Manifest Your Goals

Manifestation works on the principle that our brain attracts similar vibrations and experiences in our life based on our perception of reality .
Every person has a lot of subconscious beliefs which are shaped by several factors like the country or the family he is born into, his education and social background and the other beliefs like his strengths and weaknesses. Hence common beliefs like
“I cant be a millionaire”
“My Body is not very athletic or strong”
“I am not worthy of ____ “
“I am not beautiful or handsome”
“I can only earn _____”
“I cannot give time to my family if I have to grow in my career”
“I tend to get into toxic relationships”
“People tend to cheat me”
“I cannot be an entrepreneur”
actually create your reality.
These are the limitations and beliefs that we set upon ourselves by our perception of reality.
Manifestation or the law of attraction works on the principle that when these beliefs are changed, we can truly manifest anything in our lives.
Hence for example , to manifest a goal of buying a house, we need to put ourselves into the shoes of having already bought the house and feel yourself from that vibration.
So, an affirmation like
” Its been a month since I moved to this house. I finally bought my dream house. My wife is cooking in her remodeled kitchen. We have a garden setup in front of our house and the neighbors are so friendly . I am more happy and confident now and feel successful after having moved to my new house. I thank the universe for giving me such a wonderful gift” 
will actually help you manifest your goal of buying a house.
In this way, once you have set yourself into the vibration of having achieved your goal, the universe will actually conspire to manifest that goal for you.
Things to Remember when you manifest:
  1. You should not have any doubts or think logically about how the goal will manifest.
  2. You believe truly that you have manifested your goal and experience yourself as if you have already manifested your goal
  3. You trust that the universe will take care of manifesting your goals
  4. You can do the affirmations/scripting as soon as you get up or before you sleep as the brain is more relaxed and in a receptive state during this time.
Manifestation charts
Once you have set the goal you need to manifest , , you also need to also take physical action to push you towards your goal.
Physical Action + Emotional Trust + Mental Affirmations + Letting Go ->> MANIFESTATION OF GOALS
EXAMPLE -> GOAL :Buying a house
Mental Affirmations
Things that are not in my control
No expectations on this goal
Plan your Finances, Start looking for prospective homes
I am grateful that I bought this house on a good offer
I feel grateful for all all the wonderful neighbors and new friends and the new promotion I received after coming to this house.
I trust that the finances for investment be worked out in proper time and I get a good offer for my dream house.
Even though this goal does not manifest, “I trust that everything happens for a reason and that I am entitled to something better”.
In this way, you can draw a chart for your goals and take action on several levels to manifest your goals faster.
Scripting is a systematic journaling method to help you manifest your goals based on the law of attraction. Whatever you are trying to manifest , all you need to do is just start writing your experiences from the position of having reached your goal . This , when done over a period of time can help you manifest your goals. The concept is actually quite simple. Each day you write , you make your perception of your goal stronger, and you will actually attract it into reality. If you truly trust the process and keep at it daily, you will be surprised to see the results. 
If you would like to see results for yourself , start today.
All you need is a scripting journal (used only for this purpose) and a pen. Make it a daily ritual. Set some time aside for it . Having a beautiful designer journal/diary would also make you feel good when writing, and this increases your chances to manifest faster.
There are many scripting journals available .
This one is particularly my favorite scripting journal.
This is a 90 day maniscripting journal that has been tailored specially for manifestation and several sections made for you. Just follow through and fill in each section and the journal itself takes you through the process of manifestation.

Also order this journal here and get access to a premium course on how to manifest by “Samantha Kozuch” which normally costs $111.

Watch This video by Samantha Kozuch , the creator of “The Maniscripting Journal” on how to manifest anything in life. 

10 Best Books On Spirituality To Raise Your Consciousness

Do you have several unanswered questions about life.
Have you ever wondered where the soul goes after death or just want to know what exactly is the soul.
Ever thought about why good people suffer and how exactly does karma work?
If you want to find the answers to these questions and many more, these 10 books on spirituality/theosophy will help you on the path to your quest of the self.
I have always been a seeker since childhood – A seeker of knowledge. I always wondered about the origin of the universe and about how karma actually works and have always sought this information. I believe that, it is this inner quest in my life which has led me to these ten books on theosophy/spirituality, which have rather changed my perspective of life. I closely cherish each of these 10 books to my heart and feel grateful for having this opportunity to have read these books in my lifetime.
These are the books which I have chanced upon on my personal journey and I am sure you would also cherish these books just as I have.
BOOK1 –  A Soul’s Journey by Peter Richelieu
If there is only one book that you can read in your lifetime, then this is the book that you should read. In this book’s opening , the author is grieving the death of his brother during World War 2. Then, a mysterious person called Acharya turns up and starts explaining to the author about life, death and all the mysteries of the universe. The most amazing aspect of the book is that the author is taken on a journey to each of these seven astral planes  and the mental planes by this Acharya and the beauty and mystery of these planes are wonderfully accounted in this book . This will definitely be one of those books that you will not be able to put down.
The path of evolution of man from a tiny organism, how the law of karma works, where we go during sleep and after death , the conditions of the astral and mental planes and how they look, have all been generously shared in this book . This book would give you knowledge that you would usually not get even after reading several spiritual books. Don’t miss out this book and check out this book by clicking on the image.
BOOK 2 – You can heal your life by Louise Hay
This is one of the self-help handbooks that you can have as a daily bedtime read.  This book talks about all the self limiting patterns and beliefs that limit our life and gives you food for thought along with exercises to work upon. It talks about several important concepts like self criticism, guilt , inner child patterns in your subconscious , forgiveness , prosperity, visualization and affirmations. A separate chapter has also been dedicated to daily routine and how to form a routine to incorporate these practices in your life.
The best part of the book is however the chapter that deals with the subconscious pattern behind diseases and the affirmation for the right thought patterns to heal these diseases. This is must-have book for all energy healers, physiotherapists and health practitioners to understand the deeper meaning of our health and to help heal them on a deeper level.
BOOK3 – A Textbook on Theosophy by C.W Leadbeater
This is one of the best books to get started on theosophy. IF you want to know about evolution, the origin of the universe and the different planes of existence, this is the book to start with.  Also , this is the book you start with to better understand the other books on theosophy like “The Astral Body and other astral phenomena” and “The Mental Body“.  The formation of the solar system , the evolution of all forms of life , death and reincarnation are the other topics discussed in the book from a theosophical point of view.
BOOK4 –  The Astral body and other Astral phenomena by A.E Powell
The Astral body is one of the subtle bodies of man and the astral body is a vehicle for man’s emotions. To understand about the different bodies that man has, click here. This book describes the astral body in detail along with the colours generated when each of the emotions are experienced. What are thought forms and how they influence the astral body, what happens to the astral body during dreams and sleep is also explained in detail. This book instills upon the reader the importance of refining your emotions and thoughts for the development of the astral body and what can be achieved when the consciousness of the astral body is raised. You get to know about the astral entities in the astral plane and what clairvoyance actually means from the purview of a psychic. The last chapter also introduces readers to the concept of invisible helpers and discipleship and what is the journey ahead to be undertaken by the aspiring student.
BOOK5 – The Mental Body
This is a deeper book on theosophy which talks about the mental body – The vehicle for man’s thoughts. At the current point of evolution, man’s mental body is yet very undeveloped. This book talks about the constitution of the mental body through which man expresses his thoughts and the interconnection between the different bodies. The mechanism behind how thoughts work, how we attract similar thoughts from the universe and the concept of thought waves are explained . This would help the reader gain a more profound understanding of how affirmations , visualization and manifestation work once he understands the basic principle of thought waves and thought transference.
How to engage in activities that develop the mental body and what benefits the growth of the mental body are also discussed. The effect of concentration , contemplation and meditation on the mental body are also discussed. The latter part of the book deals with discipleship, reincarnation and the higher devachanic planes and the akashic records.
BOOK6 – Eastern Body Western Mind By Anodea Judith
Anodea Judith is a bestselling author and chakra expert who has written several books on the same. In this book, she draws a correlation between the different personality types and the chakral condition. For example , she explains how a oral personality type would look like and also mentions their underlying fears and beliefs. She then deduces what chakral combination has caused this personality type. In the case of our oral personality, they have an excessive sex and heart chakra which makes them feel needy and dependent. She does this for each of the six personality types in her book and it is worth buying the book just for this correlation.
Apart from this , she goes deep into each chakra and gives a description of its characteristics, its natural childhood developmental patterns, traumas and abuses which would affect each chakra and how to heal each chakra.
Take a Chakral Quiz to understand which chakra person you are.
If you would like to map the personality of a person to their chakras and vice versa, this is the book to go for.
BOOK7 – The Power of Habit by Charles Duhigg
Whether it is spiritual development or development in any area of your life, developing habits is a vital point to your growth in your life. If you do not develop those habits to help you attain success, no amount of self-help books or philosophy can help you. This book talks about the subconscious pattern behind developing habits in individuals and in organizations and how a single habit or a policy change in the organization has a deep rippling effect across the entire organization and can be indeed used as an personal branding strategy.
This book tells you about how setting a goal for yourself can indeed change the pattern of your life and instil new habits easily. If you are the person struggling to get up early or form good habits, this is the book to look for which would definitely motivate you to master those habits.
BOOK8 – The Ancient science and art of Pranic Healing by Master Choa Kok Sui
This is an introduction to Pranic Healing by Master Choa Kok Sui, the author of Modern Pranic Healing. It is an excellent book for people interested in the science of energy healing and how it works. You can also read this book and start practicing pranic healing immediately. The mechanism and the art behind how pranic healing works along with several protocols for diseases like cold, Asthma, arthritis, body pain , headaches etc., are given in the book, which the reader can apply immediately and start getting results. This book is also given as part of the course BASIC PRANIC HEALING which is a hands-on 2 days practical course where you are guided through the techniques by senior pranic healing practitioners.
You can register for this course here.
BOOK9 – Autobiography of a Yogi by Paramahamsa Yogananda
This is one of the books which I had read in the initial days of my spiritual journey and which opened up several doors to my learning experience . In this book, we are taken through the entire life of Yogananda himself. We are taken through the author’s early interest in reading the Bhagavad Gita , his perseverance in his spiritual journey, the trials and tribulations he underwent when he was tutoring with his guru and his early experiences that shaped him. We then read about wonderful encounters with other great saints and their yogic powers and an amazing anecdote about his meeting with Yukteshwarji (his guru) after his death . His guru then enlightens the author about the workings of the astral plane and his role there after his death. The wonders of the kumbha mela and the depictions of the saints make us yearn to visit these sages at least once in our life. Also, the meeting of the author with the great sage Babaji himself is told in a wonderful way and the whole book itself is a spiritual treat for the aspirant and definitely a good book to have in your list.
BOOK10 – The Hidden side of things by C.W Leadbeater
This is a book written from a clairvoyant’s point of view. How does our world look like to a clairvoyant are explored in detail in this book . This would change your consciousness in ways when you understand the deeper meaning of things from a clairvoyant’s view . The author explains about varied things like how different places like mountains , lakes, graveyards , churches etc. look to a clairvoyant. How we are influenced by planets, the sun, our natural surroundings , by nature spirits, by sounds etc., are also dealt in detail in this book. If you always wanted to know how world looks like to a clairvoyant, this is the book to go for.
P.S : I thoroughly enjoyed writing this article which took me down my memory lane and I hope you enjoy these books. Click on the books to see the reviews of these books and start the quest for your self today.
If you are interested in a book review on any of these books in detail, do let us know in the comments section.